• motivation,  Personal Diaries

    My Depression Memoirs

    People think depression is sadness, crying or dressing in black. But people are wrong. Depression is the constant feeling of being numb. You wake up in the morning just to go back to bed again. ~ healthyplace.com Depression has been one of the silent battles of my life. I had my first that lasted four years in 2011 and again, in 2017, I began having another phase. I remember starting this year on a very hopeful note – I mean, the moment I celebrated another year in 2017, I was hopeful and positive about a lot of things. There were promises and aspiring new beginnings even though, at a point,…

  • Personal Diaries

    I'm Renewing My Vows

    Vows made in storms are forgotten in calm. ~ Thomas Fuller. Writing this piece took quite a long time. For some minutes, I was simply staring at my laptop while trying to pick my words. I did went AWOL so many times in year 2017 because I could tell you, that year was one of the most traumatic years of my life. I couldn’t wait for the year to roll by. I lost a lot of myself, I questioned my mental health and most importantly, I dared myself to survive again. I can tell you it feels weird having to tell y’all a Happy New Year while the first month…

  • Let's talk about it/Keeping It Real

    WHAT WE DON’T KNOW ABOUT SUICIDE

    If anyone had told me I would share something related to suicide this week, I would say No. Last week Sunday, I read a story of an OAU Student who committed suicide by mixing battery liquid with rat poison because she got an E in  CHM 101.  It was very sad to stomach and it made me remember some of my breaking moments in OAU – I had to do an unplanned digging and looking into that time of my life and all I could do is thank God. I have been acutely depressed and have battled suicidal thoughts – there are days when ending it would feel like the…